Now Kiss My Ass If You're Hatin'

I can't believe that since around October I've been working on my body in accordance with D1 women's lacrosse training.

Although weight was NEVER the goal, I reached a target of 110 lbs of muscle weight. That's freaking boss from what I was at before.

I have toned ass obliques, the ever-so-envied "penis lines" and a cut waist to die for.

After this week, I'm going to start doing a squat challenge because I want to improve my gluts and thighs even more than they already are. This region has seen the most progress, going up 2 sizes in underwear because of a perkier butt, and my thighs are slim but brolic (you can see the muscle surrounding my knees). Gotta work on those calves though- they seem to be getting bigger now, running has been the biggest help for them.

All I'm waiting for is for this month to be over so I can finally end birth control pills for good and lose the extra water weight to see where I need to keep working, aka my lower abs.

I'm so proud of myself because I've never had body issues, I've always loved my body and I always will. I'm proud because I'm taking care of it and improving it. There's a difference between changing your body image to look like others and changing your body image to please yourself. I'm an athlete, I should look like one. I love gaining muscle, which is why weight is arbitrary and should be ignored. I focus on the aesthetics, though always keeping in the back of my mind that I look perfect just the way I am.

People, just because some girls love to exercise doesn't mean they're unhappy with their appearance or have some psychological disorder. Like I said, I'm an athlete. I love to look like one. The skinny model look is beyond obsolete. I want muscle. I want a big butt and a toned waist. I want muscular thighs and big calf muscles. I want defined arms and nice, broad shoulders. I want a beach bod. I want to be healthy.

This is the course to being healthy. I eat a high protein and high carb diet so I am able to build up muscle from fat and store energy for longer periods of time. I started eating more calcium rich food to strengthen my bones, because it all starts there. I eat fruit everyday as a replacement for junk food. I'm not on a "diet".

Sometimes it's hard, but I hope I never lose this drive to stay healthy and fit.

When the going gets tough, the tough get going.

RESPECT IS EARNED.